Struggling but happy!

Hi. The wedding is nearly here!
Last preparations now.
I am not too well so it is back to the GP yet again!
My psychiatrist has told me my symptoms are physical and not mental.
When you are a psychiatric patient A+E doctors and medical doctors are very quick to say it is in your head.
This is not in my head - this is real.
My goal now is the wedding.
I love Ernie so much and the big day will be the best day of my life.
Ernie is my soulmate and saint and I feel honoured to be a big part of his life.
Running and walking - I am having a break from and will not be doing JOGLE 2011.

Bye, Bethany.

Feeling sick of feeling unwell!!

Hi. Well it all comes down to a wee sample tomorrow.
UTI or no UTI?
That is urinary tract infection.
I do not feel well and have felt ill for weeks now.
There have been a few good days where I have got out and run.
But most of the time I feel unwell.
Could it now be my kidneys to blame?
A scan may show if but I am beginning to realise that my wedding day may be difficult.
I want so much to enjoy this big day and marry the man of my dreams.
But I am scared I will be bloated, tired and struggle.
Please God make me feel well again.
Let my wedding day be a day for me to remember with tears of joy, not sickness.
Amen!
Bethany.

Positive thinking!!

Hi. Well life is beginning to get easier.
The sinusitis is still a problem and makes me tired and headachey.
I have good days and bads days.
However the good days are getting more.
I do get tired easily.
I have started walking.
JOGLE is 10 weeks away. I want another go at it.
I have the experience of running part of it last year.
I have no idea how far I will get this year as I have done little training.
However if I can heal my injuries and get no more I will be okay.
Last year half of us had injuries before we started JOGLE.
I need to get back to normal - training and enjoying life.
The wedding is 4 weeks away and plans are going well.
Ernie is my rock and my healer.
I cannot wait to become his wife.

Bethany.

Almost well at last!!

Hi. Well, I am finally getting better.
The flu went after 6 weeks.
The sinusitis is being controlled by a nasal spray and the warmer weather reduces the inflammation. I wear sunglasses in bright light as my eyes are still sensitive.
My stomach is less bloated thanks to a new tablet.
I have started bbotcamp classes, do the powerplate twice a week in a gym and have started running again. Yesterday I ran a marathon round the south of the island. It took me 5hrs 36mins in heavy rain and strong winds. I got soaked.
Ernie has been helping me to get better.
We get married in a few weeks time.
Alot of the wedding service has been planned and we have almost matching wedding rings.
My dress look beautiful and I will have my hair done before the ceremony.
We could have 180 people in the chuch, 60 after for a buffet lunch and 120 for an evening ceilidh.
I cannot wait.
We will be poor after getting married as will lose half of my benefits.
I am not looking forward to this massive reduction in my wages and it will be tight.
I am optimistic about running JOGLE - there is 11 weeks to train.

I am taking one day at a time.
I have good days and bad days.

Bye, Bethany.